Dying to Purpose

I began to pray for a particular persons healing tonight.

As I begin to reach my hand out and and before I could complete the first sentence of the prayer The Lord abruptly stopped my hand and my prayer, and He spoke,

“Her issue is her purpose.”

Simultaneously, while He spoke, I felt ‘compassion’ physically leave my body; it was as if a cloud floated away from me.

For those of you who know me personally, know that I am a very caring and compassionate person, especially when it comes to others, but I didn’t understand why my compassion left. I asked the Lord why I no longer felt compassion. He said, “She doesn’t feel sorry for herself, she understands her purpose.”

I’m not saying everyone has purpose through illness, in this case she does, and through her relationship with Christ, she knows it (she was born with it). But just like many of us, she could fight against and do everything in her power not to live in ‘purpose’ just so she could live as she wishes, but this woman chooses the will of God and embraces her purpose.

I thought to myself ….along this journey of ‘purpose’ in my life, how many times have I turned away to live as I wanted because ‘this is my life’ and not embrace my purpose? When we are Christ’s we die to self because we are bought with a price. I have to/ We have to choose to walk in purpose before anything else, no matter the circumstances. Trust the Lord.

‘Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done.’ Matthew 16:24-27