I decided to write this because this morning, as I lay in my bed awake, I began to think on my life. For some reason this subject, my life :), has been on my mind a lot lately in great detail. We all, every now and again, think on how we arrived at this point in life whether good or bad; analyzing what decisions or life circumstances brought us here. It is not that we didn’t have a course or plan as to the arrival of our destination, but I am finding it harder and harder to answer the question ‘where do you see yourself in five years?’
It is a simple question. There really is nothing hard about it. I can answer it with my plans including the details of that plan. The interesting thing about this plan is that I have actually lived it and succeeded for a moment. I had the successful business, the big house, luxury cars and the happy family. I have been blessed to experience some of the most finest things in life. Never to boast, but I have been blessed all my life spiritually, mentally and physically.
But to think on that question from your own perspective is what makes it hard to answer. Because you think on what your want, your distinctive desires, which in a perfectly spiritually aligned world, would parallel your God given purpose. Unfortunately, we don’t live in a world like that. We are pulled or tugged oftentimes with our own desires, not to say all desires are ‘bad’ but they may not align with your purpose. That’s what makes that question hard. When you have made plans according to your desires verses your created purpose. Nonetheless, here I lay thinking on my life – how did I arrive here?
With that question in mind, “How did I arrive here?”, I am able to say, “MY STEPS HAVE BEEN ORDERED BY THE LORD.” I know that sounds so cliche and ‘holier than thou’ but it is the truth, I ask the Lord what He wants me to do and I do it. Not to say I am perfect,and move as quickly as he orders me to, sometimes I have traveled that ‘mountain’ several times before I ended up where He wanted me to but in the end His purpose prevailed, and I moved. It is a growing and maturing process that He takes me/us through as we are perfected into His image. I never expected to sell everything I owned including my business and move out of state. I never expected to place my life on hold to care for two dying relatives. I never expected to disassociate myself from business colleagues not to exclude individuals in ministry. I never knew what twist and turns the Lord would direct me to take, but I have remained faithful knowing that every detail commanded is apart of the process to THE DESTINATION – YOUR PURPOSE. (…..From everyone who has been given much, much will be required, and from the one who has been entrusted with much, even more will be asked. Luke 12:48)
I have to admit, I get frustrated at times. I ask God, “Do I have to do this now?” I remember the first time He told me to move to another state, I moved quickly without thinking. I moved with nothing but a few clothes and a couple hundred dollars. As I begun to settle in and fall in love with the state, I began making plans for another business, a successful relationship and to purchase a house, when I was hit with yet another ‘suddenly’. One night as I prayed He said, “Move to Tampa.” I literally began to shake, I was scared. I thought not again, I just arrived here not even a year ago.This time I wasn’t so quick to move as I did the first time my mind wanted to wonder into the hardships I had recently encountered, it wanted to remind me of how I was just now getting settled in comfortably, and now I would have to start this entire process over again? My mind wanted to take me to a place of fear and reluctance: but my heart knew I would obey and on that notion I moved. I moved because I knew His faithfulness has always taken care of me. But do you see what happened? There went my plans, again. (Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21)
I continue to make MY plans, but the difference beginning today is from now on I will not only acknowledge Him- but listen to HIM! My plans will be plans according to His purpose and not my own. The fortunate thing about His purpose, is if we subdue our carnal desires, we realize His purpose within us IS our most greatest desire. We are fulfilled when walking in His purpose for our lives. I won’t take it as far to say, you will never feel lonely, sad, frustrated, or even discouraged etc. However, at this point of walking in your purpose, your fulfillment comes from deep within knowing you are making a difference in the world, touching the lives and hearts of others because that’s what stands throughout eternity. (The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives for ever. James 2:17)
P.S.Where do I see myself in the future? I see myself walking fulfilled in purpose, leading as many as would receive, to Christ. I know seeking Him and His desires for me aligns me with ALL blessings. (But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.Matthew 6:33)