It was a beautiful day, but I didn’t feel beautiful. My 6 month old laid in his crib, as my 3 year old played on the floor. I was on the computer, when I turned around and burst into tears. Why? At the time I would not have been able to tell you. My daughter came to console me, she has always been a sweetheart. It didn’t work, I still cried. This wasn’t a normal cry either, this was a cry from the gut, from the depths of the heart. And I didn’t know why. Then all of a sudden I began to breath fast as my heart rate increased. I assumed I was having a heart attack, I was only 23. I quickly ran to the kitchen to get some garlic, I literally began to eat a raw stalk of garlic. For some odd reason I thought it would stop the heart attack I was having.
While eating the garlic, I called my husband at the time, to come take me to the emergency room asap. He did. I arrived at the emergency room, and informed them I was having a heart attack but I had eaten garlic to slow it down, they immediately rushed me to see the doctor. They viewed my heart and did whatever else they were to do, and came to tell me my results. As the doctor approached, very attentively he said, “My dear, your heart is fine and very healthy.” Instantaneously, I burst into tears, for no apparent reason whatsoever! Next came the revelation. The doctor looked directly into my eyes and asked, ‘Are you depressed?’ A light bulb emerged, ‘that’s what was wrong with me, I was depressed!!’ I said to the him, “Yes, I do believe that’s what’s wrong with me, I am depressed.”
What the doctor did was place a name on the symptoms. He gave me insight as to why I FELT the way I did. But in reality my thought pattern was the root cause of my condition. My thoughts evoked a mood of discouragement, worthlessness; the feeling of being useless and good for nothing. I constantly had thoughts of going no where in life, my thoughts had created a barrier, I could not move forward, I was stuck in hopelessness.
Our thoughts play a major role in the way we view ourselves. We have the ability to cast down thoughts and imaginations that exalt themselves against the knowledge and will of God . We are what we entertain. What thoughts are you entertaining? The Word of God clearly lays out who you are in Christ, anything contrary is not truth. You are the redeemed, victorious one who has everything you need to accomplish your purpose. The enemy comes to kill you, steal from you and destroy you. His main gateway of entry is your mind, through thought processes or ‘strongholds’. Analyze your thoughts and your current thought pattern. Could your thoughts be what is holding you back from living life to the fullest? Are you constantly negative in your thought pattern?
I’s time for you to take back control, beginning with prayer. Pray the Lord open your understanding of who you are and what you are capable of, develop that closeness and intimate relationship with Him. Don’t allow your THOUGHTS to take YOU on this journey called life. You have the power to take back control. YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK.
For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he:…(Proverbs 23:7)
(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; (2 Corinthians 10:4-5)
So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. (John 8:36)